What was your first impression?

What's it about?

It is an autobiography of a lady who struggled with multiple personality disorder, with not just one other personality, but 109 different characters, each created to protect Carolyn's memory from the horrors she suffered as a young child as a result of satanic ritual abuse. She didn't go into too many graphic details of the abuse, which was a relief, but focussed on the long battle of ‘getting free', including how she had to leave her children for 3 years, so she could get better.

What did you like about it?

I liked that I learnt about a side of the human psyche that I didn't know about before. I liked that Carolyn ultimately ‘got free' not by noisy and scary deliverance sessions, but by submitting to God and resisting the devil, with the help of a course called ‘Freedom in Christ' and through the support of faithful men and women of God. I also liked the fact that those people who ultimately helped Carolyn were ordinary, ‘normal' people who loved God and were obedient.

What didn't you like?

Nothing - it was well written, easy to read (despite the subject matter) and extremely compelling.

What will you still remember a year from now?

The way that God was able to work in the life of someone who seemed beyond help. It really reminded me that even though there will be some people we meet who seem to be ‘unreachable', God is more than able to meet their needs, provide miracles and set free those who choose to submit to Him.

Who would you recommend this book to?

Those who are feeling beyond God's help; those who are feeling discouraged because they haven't seen a breakthrough with those who they work with; and anyone who enjoys reading and wants to read a powerful and moving book!

Can you give us a couple of good quotes from the book?

""Nothing" came to speak with Christopher in therapy a few days later and we learned of her story. She revealed that I was eight years old when she came and was created to keep me out of the way and out of sight. I felt of no account, of no importance, a non-person. I could be made use of by others because it didn't matter what happened to me. I was a nobody, nothing. Another lie was revealed and embodied; another battle to fight in my mind. I didn't matter, not to anybody. I would never matter."

 "Because of the DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) and the demonic issues, she had never really been in control of her own mind. Because she had been a victim and learned at an early age that it was useless to struggle, she could tend just to give in and agree with the enemy when he came knocking with his accusations and lies. However, she really worked at renewing her mind, which meant committing herself with grim determination to believe what God's word says even when it didn't feel true. She learned to realize that not every thought in her mind was necessarily her own and that the question to ask was not so much where it came from but whether it was true. She learned to hold her thoughts up to the truth in God's word and throw out those that did not agree with it."

review by emmakiz